For this #TraintoTransformTues I want to share another part of me with you. Photo on the left was in 2010. I was at the lightest I've ever been at 48kg.. with not much muscle, skinny fat, no butt, arms that look like tubes, my strong thighs were non existent .. and at that time i THOUGHT i was better. I lost all that weight from not eating cause I was going through a breakup... i was at a bad place and seeing the weight on the scale drop on a daily basis made me think, maybe being this thin would be the thing to make me happy and gain a person back, since the person I was with had a preference for thinner fairer girls. Talk about whacked, cause I believed that I wasn't good enough. This built the insecurities in my head.
It was only when I learnt I didn't need anyone, especially a guy, to validate me, I started to understand my self worth. Appetite came back, I met other people from different circles and I found the gym again. That was a sanctuary. While i didn't really know what to do with the weights or machines - i buat pandai la...there's always youtube. Everytime I broke out into a sweat it was a victory for me and that became the addiction. Like I said, I didn't really know what I was doing then, I know I was just doing it for me. Yeah sure im at a heavier weight but i urge all you girls not be bothered by the scale. 7 years later, as I look in the mirror now. I'm so much happier with where I am at physically - I'm much stronger, healthier - and mentally. There's room for improvement of course. Point is, my life changed for the better from 2 things.
1) Knowing self worth and
2) Loving my body, which meant I had to take care of it.
My dear girls and guys, don't let the visual desires of others - be it in real life or social media - define you. Your actions and heart define you :)
#TransformationTuesday #LoveYourself #Positivity #SelfWorth #Fitspiration #ThoughtsBecomeReality #GuardYourheart #Strength
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